Just Before Deadline Time...

1. How is mothering, in reality, different from what you expected it to be?

It's hard. I never expected it to be this hard. And everyone keeps telling me I have it easy. Come again? Right now I feel more like a babysitter than a mother. I spend the entire day trying not to make him cry, changing his nappies, feeding him, entertaining him. Basically waiting for 7pm when I can bath him, give him a massage, feed him and put him to bed.

2. What is something you, as a kid, vowed you would never say to your own kids? Have you kept the vow?

Haven't been able to try any of that on The Kid yet. He's not yet mobile, and not much of a little terror yet. However, I cant wait to try 'dont do as I do, do as I say'. That is one of the things keeping me going.

3. If someone stopped in to your house for a surprise visit, would you be glad for the company, or self-concious by the condition of your home?
There are days when I'm the Domestic Goddess and I manage to get the entire house cleaned, grocery shopping done, washing done, dinner cooked and I even have time and energy to bake an apple crumble or have some friends over for dinner. Other days are just too much effort. And staying in my dressing gown the entire day seems mandatory. But I'd probably be self-conscious about the mess my house is (it's open plan, so gets messed up within 2 seconds of having cleaned it - fucking nightmare I tell you) but then we'd just go sit upstairs on the balcony, and I'd get over myself. Hey, if you wanna drop in uninvited, dont you be judgmental about the state of my house, okay?

4. If you had twins tomorrow (boy and a girl) and you got to name them without any input from anyone else, what would you choose?

Tristan and Tamara

5. Did you suffer from post natal depression (this is an awful boring question but I always wonder about this cause I didn't suffer myself)?

I'm not actually sure. Did I want to slit my wrists or kill my baby? Not exactly. But there were moments when I could understand why mothers drown their babies, or smother them with pillows. That didn't mean I wanted to do it myself. I guess it all had to do with Luke's mom taking The Kid when I needed a break. Otherwise who knows what might have happened?

But I am definitely still very moody, am prone to serious tantrums and childish behaviour. But then again, I guess I was always like that...