Let Go, Let TV

This is a post from my Restless Blog I thought was a good "bad mommy" entry:

I'm SO tired. It's 8:00 pm Sunday eve. it's been a LONG weekend, and my husband's at work. My daughter needs attention (as most normal kids do); I played with her a bit, tried to draw with her, "read" with her some - but finally kind of gave up. Quite frankly, I just don't have it in me anymore tonight. Because she's merely 18 months, her language is still very foreign to me and I spend most my days pretending to know what she's saying and "pretend" talking with her. Actually, I've done this since she was born. (That may be why she "talks" constantly). It's absolutely THE cutest thing I've ever heard and witnessed, but tonight - I just can't do it. I can't fake not being tired and I can't play with her and her toys she plays with in her own random way. I'm just plain exhausted. That's why daddy is suppose to be home on Sunday evenings: to save mommy from going insane.

So, I'm doing the thing I told myself I would never do BEFORE having my precious daughter: letting go and letting the TV babysit her.

BTW, in my defense, I AM forcing myself to still do the pretend "I'm so excited Kai-lin is on too!" + big fake - I don't want her to feel like she's watching TV alone - smile.

Is it bedtime yet?