Count the Bad Mommies

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Let Go, Let TV

This is a post from my Restless Blog I thought was a good "bad mommy" entry:

I'm SO tired. It's 8:00 pm Sunday eve. it's been a LONG weekend, and my husband's at work. My daughter needs attention (as most normal kids do); I played with her a bit, tried to draw with her, "read" with her some - but finally kind of gave up. Quite frankly, I just don't have it in me anymore tonight. Because she's merely 18 months, her language is still very foreign to me and I spend most my days pretending to know what she's saying and "pretend" talking with her. Actually, I've done this since she was born. (That may be why she "talks" constantly). It's absolutely THE cutest thing I've ever heard and witnessed, but tonight - I just can't do it. I can't fake not being tired and I can't play with her and her toys she plays with in her own random way. I'm just plain exhausted. That's why daddy is suppose to be home on Sunday evenings: to save mommy from going insane.

So, I'm doing the thing I told myself I would never do BEFORE having my precious daughter: letting go and letting the TV babysit her.

BTW, in my defense, I AM forcing myself to still do the pretend "I'm so excited Kai-lin is on too!" + big fake - I don't want her to feel like she's watching TV alone - smile.

Is it bedtime yet?

3 comments:

Boobah's Mom said...

I TOTALLY get where you are coming from. Boobah is only 9 and 1/2 months, and already I've had what you're feeling. Since last weekend, he's been acting up, and quite frankly, I don't knw what to do with him anymore...

Thank You for Nannies and Oumas!!!

angel said...

ah yes, the tv-babysitter... damien never could sit still long enough for me to use it...(and still doesn't unless its animax or ps2)...

zoeyjane said...

Um. So what you're saying is that I shouldn't be using it on a three times a day basis? I totally didn't get that memo.